somedays i feel behind before i begin and then that intial feeling of defeat defines my day. it is as though i don’t even try to fight it. My heart hurts, my mind is tired, and my body begins to physically ache. God sends me signs of his love he even offers to carry my burden in the midst of the day and maybe i let go for a minute, and then it seems as though i feel the need to grab a hold of it again. like i need it, or i am burdened with it, or it is my job to carry it all day and yet God tells me:
28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” Matthew 11
What am i to learn lord as i fight myself. I live in a blessed nation, with few worries, i am clothed and fed, and yet my heart feels beaten today. Truly i have nothing to be burdened with. And so i have to repeat the work of Christ to myself in the midst of my surroundings, i must pull myself up by letting go of myself. Lord Catch me if i fall, hold my heart steady as i am weak.
so i let the words of the old run through my head and remind me that there is one who protects me even from myself.
1 I lift up my eyes to the mountains—
where does my help come from?
2 My help comes from the LORD,
the Maker of heaven and earth.
3 He will not let your foot slip—
he who watches over you will not slumber;
4 indeed, he who watches over Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep.
5 The LORD watches over you—
the LORD is your shade at your right hand;
6 the sun will not harm you by day,
nor the moon by night.
7 The LORD will keep you from all harm—
he will watch over your life;
8 the LORD will watch over your coming and going
both now and forevermore.